The truth about Anal.

This will be TMI for those of you faint at heart - because I wish that I could have found something as blunt as this before Sunday.

I have had anal sex in the past, but for the last 9 months haven't been able to do it no matter the coaxing. The first time I did it I was with what was supposed to be my fiance. A lot of lube and a bit of a sore butt later, I told myself I'd never do it again - and he had a pretty small cock. But the key was, I could do it because it was thin, not much girth. I got into a bit of drugs as well and ended up doing it completely stoned - this helped with the process. Majorly.

In the last few months the BF has done all he could to coax me into going butt up and letting him in. I've been wasted and it hasn't happened, I've been sober and it hasn't happened. I've wanted it to happen, but it hasn't. We've lubed, we've spit, we've done all things possible, but the tip went in, it hurt, I screamed, he freaked, I'd say if he really wanted it - he should just find someone else. It's not that his dick is huge - it's not that big. Average I'd have to say. It's a decent width, decent length. He's definitely bigger than the two that I've had it with - but still it's not something I'd write home to Mom about or anything, nor take pictures and fantasize.

I digress. So the dirty truth is I really needed to cum on Sunday morning. I was stir crazy. He looked so damn hot laying in bed, hair messed up, those baby blues looking at me in the morning. He did that breathing thing on my neck and it was like "Game on!" I jumped all about. He'd get hard, and then it would turn out that all that drinking dried me out really bad. But I had some lube in my purse and down I went to get it. I came back up, we started to have sex, I dried out. I was ticked.

That's when it dawned on me that the only time I ever came with the fiance was when we had anal sex (yes, just that once). I was desperate, I'd work through the pain, I just needed to cum. I looked at him, "where's the lube?"

"You're too dry sweetheart." His response.

"Fuck me in the ass."

I swear just the "a" came out of my mouth and he was lubed up and ready, hard as a rock. The truth is that phrase made him even harder than he'd ever been, which, by the way, makes his dick A LOT bigger than usual. Fuck.

He wanted to be slow and gentle, I told him to just do it. And he did. The pain was excruciating. I jumped like a Mexican jumping bean. Wiping the tears from my eyes I told him to let me do it.

It turns out that to start off it was much better with me on top. I had control of the depth and the angle. Breathe deeply. Use a lot of lube. It's gonna hurt but just get it in.

After awhile of me being in control he spun me around and propped me up doggy-style. The angle was all wrong but I just kept breathing - the shaking of my legs said it all and he told me to lie down to ease up the angle. So I did. This was much better to do, the angle was smoother but the doggy style really had me in pain. I could tell that he was about ready to cum, so I gripped the mattress and breathed as he finished up and collapsed on top of me. It wasn't but a few moments that he had been flipped on to his back and I took off for the bathroom. Just what I thought and expected - blood.

So what to expect if you're going bottoms-up for the first time ...

"Relax" isn't an option. There's a dick going in your butt. Your butt is not meant to be as flexible as your vagina. He can tell you to breath all you want but it's not going to happen.

Lube is mandatory.

Take control the first time, than let him go.

And don't expect to take a shit for a day. You'll also have gas - especially if you used a lot of lube. And it hurts when both of those happen. I bled until this morning.

Lucky bastard.

But it wasn't that bad ...

I'm just wondering if this is going to be like high school sex ... you know that first time you're with a guy and for the first 3 months you're fine with just groping each other, than you get involved with oral and that's all he wants every time you make out afterwards, than you have sex - so you pretty much have to do that all the time ... does that mean he's going to try and pop it in there EVERY TIME??