Let me stop to care.

I'm in a weird mood today. I blame it on STC.

I realized the BF is completely Big and as I watched his and Carrie's story play out on the big screen I couldn't help praying for the happy ending because it seemed so familiar. We move in 2 weeks. I showed my apartment today, most likely it's rented. It dawned on me, there is no "my place" anymore. I had a bit of a panic attack - is this really okay? Could I afford to keep it on the side, no.

I'm not sure what the future brings anymore.

Been away so long, so long.

The truth is with out the fancy work-ordered machine I haven't been able to steal my internet connection - so I apologize for no posts!

The new job is freaking great. I'm not screwing people for education - I'm helping them advance themselves and change their lives. It's nice sleeping at night. I got my first potential student today! I'm meeting with them tomorrow at 5:30. It's all freaking roses.

I wish there was something dramatic to report - me and the BF have never been better. Oh the wasted time on misplaced stress. I can't wait to move in with him.

My whole life is different - and it's only been a month. Wonder what the year will bring!